california deserves it! ha ha ha.

today turned out to be pretty damn decent. i handed my paper in ON TIME. dr pease made me laugh good (he's smart). i completed the homework assignment by the time class rolled around. the short paper i wrote for "dave" last week got an a+ (that IS a plus! mommy, i can do it). the two classes i skipped last week were actually only one cause dr james cancelled his due to a broken tooth (poor him cause he's the best). i got to the cat shelter without incident & without getting too pissed about traffic. got home early around 8:30. got high. watched real world. today was a good day.

i'll tell you, real world is so much funnier when you're smacked. bunch of fuckin freaks!! tell me they don't stage the constant bullshit. here's my list of characters & their roles-- leah as the sexpot (come on, she so is), mallory as the hot ass airhead, ace as homeboy aj (oops. did i just say that??), simon as the self absorbed intellectual, ct as the ape-like sociopath, adam as the sappy girly man, and christina as the over dramatic bitch. with each episode, i'm shocked how much ace resembles my exboyfriend who's nickname, curiously, is "ace." yeah, so, real world. i can't believe i watch it and love it. has anyone seen the commerical for "rich girls?" omg. gross.

time for bed!
posted by heather at 12:50 AM

here i am. it's cool. i really do like talking to myself. in fact, i was lying in bed for at least an hour the other night having a conversation, out loud, with myself. you know, kind of pretending to talk to someone in particular. it wasn't even very important, but it was on my mind. i won't get super into it cause it's what i like to call "stupid," but draw your own conclusions from my earlier post about a boy. he's still buggin me-- won't take no for an answer, insists we should "do it" (yes, "do it") at least once more, and continues to flatter me with compliments of how good i am. charming. what's sad is i've thought about it, sorta considered it. perhaps it's the whole dry spell thing messing with my head. i was talking to kristy at work on saturday, and she was sweet to point out why i shouldn't: "you've gone this long because you're refusing to accept that kind of behavior. it's not that it's for a lack of opportunity." well, yes, it's that too. whatever whatever. let me have the resolve to keep saying NO. (he called & woke me saturday night at 1:30. glad i was asleep.)

otherwise, i'm fair at best. i can't drag myself out of this hole...STILL. i swear i sabotage myself. as a matter of fact, i'm writing my 9 page paper that's due tomorrow morning. there were a few books i had to read this weekend that i barely touched. and i have homework due tomorrow that hasn't been started. whatever whatever again. i'm secretly hoping that graduating will propel me into something new & exciting & better, but who am i fooling? i don't think it works that way. alright, i'm gonna keep this screen up & go write some more....

my god. if i ain't a total party pooper. well, i'm done with the paper for now. it's written, but i haven't read it over. it was done in a day, so it's def not my best work, def not something i wanna read now. in the morning. hmm. pretty thoughts before i inhale a cig (bad heather) and sleep for a few hours.... it's finally fall & the weather is marvelous!! football is in full effect. the new outkast and dm (three stars this, bitch) cds are so wonderful that i can't stop listening. oh. you haven't heard? go NOW.
posted by heather at 10:03 PM