so, here i am, minding my business and i get this random im from some kid i went to middle school with. (actually, i consider him my first boyfriend...from back in the sixth grade.) thing is, i happened to run into him a few years back. it had been something like eight or nine years. now, this is a guy who i was pretty much obsessed with. not crazy obsessed, just the one who i fixated on the most. we went to school together for three years. so yeah, i see him again & all these silly old feelings come back. nostalgia, if you will. the only common interest we share at this point, i think, is bud. good enough. i drive over one night to chill and shit happens. then, in the following months, more shit. we'll call this my confused phase. in some sick & twisted way, i'm totally happy all this is happening. but it's just a fuck. the novelty wears off for me, and we haven't seen each other in a couple years.

tonight he apparently sees me online & decides to say hi. we bullshit about what we've been up to. out of left field i get, "you know, i still remember us having sex." uh, okay. the son of a bitch is begging for more. i love it. he goes on and on about how...well, i'll stop at that.

point is: i gotta fight the temptation. someone help my sorry ass.

ps. i'll blame the pbr for this post. hope it's good entertainment, if nothing else!
posted by heather at 8:47 PM

so relaxed at this point i'm enjoying a thorough listening of everyday. serious. desperate measures in times like these-- the only tv i've seen in days has been about some damn blackout. (who needs hours upon hours of news coverage for that?) i mean, sorry for the inconvenience and all, but get a life. if that's the worst you're dealing with, things are alright.

i don't think i've ever spent so much time with my cousins.... they're fun and funny and smart, and it was refreshing! kids aren't so bad after all. despite it being hot & humid as hell, the water was freezing. i spent a total of five minutes in wednesday; chilly...in august. miraculously, it warmed up thursday! hallelujah!!

good for me, i get to use the next couple days to straighten up.

(this cd isn't so bad after all. i will NOT make any apologies for loving wtwe. ha.)
posted by heather at 8:16 PM

dear me. i just wanted to jot a few things down in between the two legs of my vacation. my flight didn't get in until 11:45 last night, and i had to be up early this morning to start this internship. tomorrow morning i'll head out to the outer banks (a splendid six hour drive) until sometime friday. trick'll be getting myself to finally relax. i absolutely enjoyed my time in wash, but i've not been feeling myself. yuck. between acting & feeling funky and drinking myself silly, i managed to return home kinda burnt. my apologies to you, lauren, for not at least calling saturday night; after dinner i really needed a bed and a tv and limited human contact. i'm the first one to admit that i can be a nutjob!! thank you SO much for your kindness. it was very nice meeting bree and friends after hearing & reading so much about her the last couple years ;) and always nice seeing you, ryan. although i kept numb and quiet for three straight days, i really did have a great time (it's hard to tell w/ me, i know). with each trip, i find more reasons to relocate out there. it'll be a difficult decision to make when the time comes....

so, the gorge was wonderful. the people were equally beautiful. yum!! i have stories about a friend who went to the wrong airport to catch his flight, friends who were kicked off their flight, selling three tickets for tweny bucks & a few hits off a bowl, etc etc etc. you know how we roll.

hope everyone has made it back safely, merrily. james, love you!! thanks for making it totally worth it again!
posted by heather at 11:50 PM