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9.29.2004
is there anybody out there?

time to celebrate! i start my job on tuesday! after accepting the offer, i made a snap decision to move into a townhouse with my brother and dad. wtf?! i won't be paying much more than i am here, but it will add an extra twenty, thirty minutes to my commute. not to mention, i'll be moving away from my cats, and my mom, and andy, and comfort....OH, the sadness! i need a hug.




9.19.2004
heeeee's baaackk! we shouldn't be surprised. at least we got go-go.




9.18.2004
mmm saturday morning.... words can't describe how thankful i am for not serving omelets to assholes right now. i had two interviews this week-- one with a bureau of the dept of the interior (YUCK) and the second with a private environmental consulting/engineering firm. i wasn't offered the govt job, but there's some hope i'll get a call from the other. it wouldn't be my first choice of job, that's for sure. however, it's not the deli, and it's somewhat related to the field i'd like to pursue. i'm also hoping to hear from the EPA soon!

it was great making it back to the Gorge for a third consecutive year. people who don't KNOW think i'm crazy to go all that way for a few concerts. if there's anyplace to experience live music, though, that's it. no question. i got a little goofy on our last day camping & jumped off a 43-foot cliff. couldn't even tell you what possessed me to do it because i had no real desire to try. maybe it was the beer (NO, i wasn't close to drunk), or perhaps the need to find some excitement, or even the fact carrie & i were encouraging each other. all i know, i took a couple tokes of something kind, and i was on my way up the hill. you have to step over a downed fence with a NO TRESPASSING sign to access the highest points. there were a handful of people standing around, a couple of dudes just going for it, and some guy with a tape measure making sure all is well? i dunno, i was pretty caught up in my head. kevin, a friendly head carrie had met, accompanied us up to the cliff explaining over & over what we had to do for a successful jump. after a minute, kev says, "i'm gonna jump, and one of you will go right after me." they looked at me. i respond, "okay." without any preparation, kevin walks to the edge and jumps. my heart starts racing, i give him a few seconds, a minute, and i carefully approach the edge. i'm terrified that there is nothing in front of me. i may have briefly looked down to kevin, but i knew if i waited any longer, i couldn't do it. so i went. unfortunately, i was so worried about just stepping off and clearing the face of the cliff that i wasn't ready to enter the water! from what the others said, it wasn't pretty. i think i landed in some sort of seated position, bracing myself with my arms (kind of like a gymnast on the parallel bars). it hurt BAD, knocked the wind out of me for a second, but i emerged from the water feeling totally invigorated. that was the greatest adrenaline rush of my life! it took me swimming back to shore (a fair distance) to recover, and even then, my heart & mind were racing. the next day i checked out the damage in a mirror-- black & blue bruises on my left hip & ass!!! only me! i'd do it again, too!

earlier this week, moveon.org announced the vote for change tour will culminate with a finale here in dc! this four hour show will bring together some of my all time favorite musicians-- dave matthews band, pearl jam, rem, bruce springsteen, bonnie raitt, jackson browne, james taylor, and babyface. i tried buying presale tickets but had no luck. so, i was up at 10 today when they went on sale at ticketmaster. i lucked out by getting four crappy seats behind the stage, way up top. couldn't be happier :)